I had a kind of crappy day today. It started last night when we didn't get to go to this piano bar that I was looking forward to going too. Then I drank a little more than I should have, but not enough to forget that I was pretty much on my own at The Ballroom in Fremont. Not a place where you want to be on your own. Everyone pretty much coupled off and I tried to be cool about it. I sort of went into the dance floor and danced by myself a little bit. But that's kind of depressing. So I got another drink since drinking kind of occupies you for a little, but I knew I had too much so I switched to water. I was no knowing at all what to do with myself when this guy kind of did the little head tilt towards the dance floor. He looked harmless enough, so I shrugged and went in to dance. It's nice to feel wanted. Coincidentally, his name was Angel. A little angel being sent to make me feel better. After a few songs we went our separate ways back out to the bar area, where I was once again all by my lonesome. I realized I was having negative fun, so I headed for the door. I was feeling a little bad about not saying goodbye to anyone I came with. Lucky enough, I passed one of them getting a drink and told him I was on my way out. He didn't seem to upset about me leaving. :-) Anyways, I went home and threw up all my alcohol and went to bed. I was still really hungover in the morning.

Today I found out that somebody egged my car. This is the second time in like 3 months. I wonder if I did something mean to somebody in my apartment building without knowing it. I hope not. I'm going to report it to the building manager this time.

Three weeks into my pilates workout program and I seem to have gained an inch on my waist. I have lost 4 pounds, though. I'm not sure what's going on. I think it might be the pizza and chips.

I hope to figure out my life in the next few weeks. That's a pretty big thing to do. I think I just need to commit to something and let myself go along for the ride.

I'm seeing B on Friday. We're going to Blue Man Group. I'm so psyched! I'm going to bring my new fancy purse.

--K