Wednesday, August 30, 2006

truth serum

crazy fun once again last night. how did i end up in such a social group? b letter got me all pensive and confused. need to reread. hoping for clarity. people tell me their secrets when they are drunk. sometimes i don't remember them.

a man of few words once said:

Monday, August 28, 2006

recovery

spent all day yesterday recovering and trying to fill in the gaps from saturday night. s invited me out dancing and i can never say no to dancing. i hadn't been to a danceclub in months. it was so much fun. alcohol is evil. i don't know why i love that type of music so much. w was fun to dance with. t didn't make it out. i think he's afraid of danceclubs since he went to a dude school. will have to change that.

then last night i went to a magical little world in the woods filled with moonlight and old apple trees. wish i had my camera but i'm sure my memories are more vivid. need to do some painting. found out important tip about using watercolors - the paper needs to be flat on the table. sometimes i wonder about my brain... no more drippy watercolor paintings in the future. it's nice to escape the future sometimes and just enjoy the present.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

confidant

Just had a phone conversation with an old confidant. We help each other see the realities of our follies. It's good to have someone to laugh at yourself with. Cuz I can do things that are pretty damn funny. I think we all do. You just have to take a step back and look at the whole situation.

connection

your stare lit up
all the molecules in the air
making me acutely aware
of our connection

your touch so strong
filled with comfort and such
that i endlessly clutch
your affection

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

totally lame

so so sorry for being such a lame poster lately. i was looking back in august of 04 to see if i blogged about my goodbye party since k was reminding me about it today but couldn't find it. what i did find was more interesting posts than the past year.

life is kind of confusing these days. so much happens yet nothing really does. i've been distracted a lot. doing much thinking. did something fun followed by something kind of dumb and now i'm in a sticky situation. do you ever give an opposite msg than you intend by mistake then you can't really fix it w/o being super-overt. yeah. so i'm feeling dumb. ack. i hate having unfinished business.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

electric ant armies and hot crimson sand
hovering over the palm of my hand