life is good

i still can't believe how good my life has become in the past few months. just when i think things can't get any better something else happens. i'm trying to relish it while it lasts. very few things seem to bother me these days. i love my commute, i find the rain beautiful, i'm connecting with my friends, work is amazing, i'm watching very little tv, i'm doing enough during the day to make me sleep well, but still be able to get up in the morning. i love the morning. and the afternoon. and the evening. humor is everywhere. how bizaare. how bizaare.

success

success turned to failure last night which was probably inevitable. there's only so long you can postpone dealing with things. it could be for the best, as now i can move on. my dreams have been incredibly vivid lately, making it hard to wake up. this morning a character in my dream was reading passages from famous works of literature. i was unaware of that content existing in my head. where do i go from here?

wishmaker

I make a lot of wishes. On eyelashes, stars, magic 8 balls, flowers, situations. I make multiple wishes a day. Sometimes they are really serious concerning life goals. More often I wish things for other people (health, good luck, clarity, success). Sometimes I wish for frivolous things like tator tots or eye contact. Making a wish is serious business because you need to be careful what you wish for. You need to make it really specific or else it will just be a waste. The wishgranter is a cross between a lawyer and a computer. The wishgranter requires precise language and refuses to make assumptions. A wish should have a timeline associated with it. You need a lot of adjectives. You don't want to wish for someone to have a long life. You want them to have a long, health, happy, fulfilling life. You don't just wish for someone to make the right decision. You want them to come to a decision within the next two weeks that will result in long-term happiness. An ambiguous wish is just wasted, floating away in wishworld.

hue and saturation

lately greens have been so bright and reds are really pale. purple is almost non-existant. but blue is there. leading the pack.

all shook up

it seems like big things happen to me all at the same time. or maybe things seem bigger when there are already big things happening so there's a smaller space left for other things which makes them seem bigger. work just got bigger, but in a good way. i love getting projects that require me to actually think. sf was net positive. mostly things went as well as they could have. it was good to see b but kind of hard too. we got to play the "friend" roles. it was a little hard because there's a fuzzy line between good friend and girl/boyfriend and we were so used to playing the latter roles. i think we did a pretty good job. he totally took some liberties though - for example he kept on taking sips of my coke. nobody gets to do that. gotta run. more later.

regressing

oh shit. just took a few steps in the wrong direction, emotionally at least. it's ukw's birthday. dammit why is stuff like this always harder than it should be?

addicted to the internet

so i'm like online all the time now. it's ridiculous. i was so unplugged in boston. barely even used my cell phone. now i'm constantly keeping track of all these blogs and sites and stuff. it's fun but mostly a big waste of time. work is going well. i have a lot of ideas i want to run with. yesterday i rode like 20 miles on shar's bike. it was fun. i love the feeling of coasting down a beautiful path with the wind in my face. went to lava lounge last night. hadn't been there in a long time. it was good. low-key with music in the background and just the right amount of people so it was neither crowded nor empty. the sf trip this weekend should be interesting. idk why but i'm kind of nervous to fly with all the new airline restrictions. i'm sure i'll forget something and end up like throwing away really expensive makeup or something. maybe i just shouldn't bring makeup. been trying out tinted moisturizer this week and so far i like it. i'm considering having a no jeans week sometime soon so i can get to wear some of my other clothes. i also think a dress/skirt week would be fun. too bad it's getting so cold. i need to figure out what to wear to shira's wedding too. it'll be like the same people that were at my high school prom. so strange. i'm excited to see dano - it's been so long - need to catch up. totally twisted my ankle walking home last night but it's not bad enough to make me take the elevator. time to disconnect.